So....I thought of you today. Oddly enough it was because my back was killing me and I felt like I was going to pass out from the pain....yet I continued to work. Odd. Odd because you always complained of back pain, and it just made me think of you. Well that set off a chain reaction of thoughts, no big deal. So I thought................. I thought of all the times you made me smile, with jokes and stories or just your thought process. I thought of the times we would watch movies and how often I would catch you watching me. I thought of the times I would wake up scared -from things in the past only you know of-and how you would comfort me. I thought of how everynight we were together you held me, no matter what. Work kicked back in and my back gave way to a new threshold of pain-it was literally eye popping.No good.I watched as happy pre-valentine filled couples skipped off to their cars leaving the restaurant.I wasn't bitter, I wasn't jealous, I was happy for them. I thought of how you always pushed the hair off my face, complaining of how long it was. I thought of the ways you held my hand till someone would look. I thought of how you use to sing to me your favorite songs of that time, because it constantly changes. I thought of this coming Valentines day, and the plans we made.... but wont fullfil. Work came and went. The hours dragged on, and then I was cut and told to go home.On the way home I thought some more........... I thought of the promises you would say to me. The two years of work that we put into each other, you know me better than I know myself and that scares me. I thought of the attempts, the tries, the talks, the small insignificant fights, the faliures. I thought of the tears I cried over you. I got tired of thinking.................so I quit thinking of you. I thought of tomorrow and how your not gonna be apart of it. I thought.............thats okay. And then the sun rose. And I was okay. | 
